2010, Nice to Know You, Goodbye:)

Yeah, I know. Your facebook page and updates has been infested with new year resolutions, what-I-did-in-2010-and-what-I-want-to-do-in-2011 stories.

Some made a monthly summary of 2010. Some listed down advice and wisdom that they have gathered throughout their entire lives till today.

For me, 2010 has been a blur. Not because it went too fast, but because I have been through SO MUCH last year. From finding myself to heartbreak to meeting new inspiring people to discovering love to learning more about the real world to learning how to express gratitude and to becoming a better person.

I realized a lot of things:

1. Everyone has their own stories. Learn from them.

2. Every year is a chapter. You will evolve into deeper self-discovery.

3. The value of family. Not even all the sperms in this world added up can live up to that value.

3a. The older you get, the less friends you have (which is a good thing because nature sheds-Please read previous blog and quote taken from TF). Real friends are more valuable than all the gems in this world.

5. In order to know what you want, you first have to discover what you don't want.

6. Leave the past behind and look forward. The past is a lesson and a part of your journey to happiness, not a prison.

7. You are the boss of your life. You are the master of your mind. Dare to live your dreams. No one else is going to make it happen but you.

8. It's about time that you do something about your dreams. The moment doubt or worry enters your head, kill it faster than a bullet. You dictate your mind. Don't let your mind dictate you.

9. Love is beautiful. The walls just prevent you from being free. So I've learned. Learn to give unconditionally. You have nothing to lose. But first, learn to love yourself and be comfortable and content in your own skin.

10. God knows best. You are where you are today because He knows what's best for you. Be grateful.

I hope I don't sound too preachy. Just want to share.

To a kick-ass 2011 everyone!

Cheers!

Self Evolution (Someone to Watch Over You)

The most important essence of life is… Evolution.

And I’m not talking about Darwin here. I am talking about you, us, and the rest of the people around the globe.

It’s funny how some people may never realize this at all in their lifetime. To come to this awakening and awareness that you have evolved and will constantly be evolving is euphoric.

It’s actually very simple (If you see it as simple and if you would want to argue with that, that’s fine. You may stop reading).

You were born into this world not by chance, not by “accident” but by this simple thing called fate.

In my case, (now I know I am turning it to me now but it is the best way to analyze and understand things better - by relating your events in life that have molded you into the person that you are right now) when I was born, I was born into the arms of a beautiful couple called my mom and dad. That was, life’s first gift to me.

Some may not even know who their real parents are, some may just grow up with just a parent, and some may have just a speck of memory of who their parents are. Whatever it may be for each of us, I have always believed that God has a plan for everyone. It is whether you’re in for the ride with Him or you’re not.

Just like Rumi said:

Learn the alchemy true human beings know. The moment you accept what troubles you've been given, the door will open.

It’s always easier to think that life hasn’t been fair to you and to put the blame on everything else around you. Blame no one because blame leads to hate and hate blinds you from seeing what God has created for you - be it in the form of a friend, a random person like that nasi lemak seller who just happened to smile at you, a comforting place (such as that little bench in the park that just gives you peace when you sit on it), a pet, a hobby, a talent and the list goes on.

The most valuable lesson that I’ve learned is learning how to be thankful-even for the smallest thing. Such as, well, I fell into a longkang once and I was so thankful that I didn’t die. Okay maybe that wasn’t so simple. I mean, it is possible that someone might die of falling into a longkang but you get my point.

See, I’ve lead what seemed like a normal life but everyone has their own stories. All I can say is that I’ve been tested with tremendous challenges after challenges that when kids my age are busy playing Legos, I’ve began to see that the world ain’t so much of rainbows and butterflies.

Bitterness used to be a part of me. Note the past tense :)

And so the journey of discovery starts. How it ends or how long it takes will depend on your consciousness of self evolution.

Let me summarize an event. Some drama happens in your life. As human you have feelings. Feelings can be very subjective but this is roughly how it goes (in order):

Hurt, Anger, Sadness, Self-Pity, Denial, Resentment, Hate, Acceptance.

Some people may get stuck at Sadness for years, some may move on to the stage and be stuck at Hate for a while but however it may end up for each of us will depend on how you view things. Some may just bounce from Hate to Acceptance then back to Hate again until they reach Acceptance.

Hate and acceptance may seem like a 360 degrees turnaround of state of mind but it can happen with a simple thing – feeling thankful. Cliché as it may sound but I’ve always believed that whatever happens is a valuable lesson. With that, one should be thankful.

Yes, sometimes it gets tiring when life keeps testing you over and over again but heck. If you take a deep breath and look around you, soon you will see that whatever happens, God is always there to watch over you- from the day you were born.

He teaches you valuable life lessons some tough, some easy, but He will always send someone to watch over you.

It is up to you to discover who those people are.

Special thanks to:

-AN for being a sister and family whenever you need to be (the rest of the time you're annoying but I still love you as much)

-M for being you and for being in my life

-TF for pointing out to me about evolution. Live & Inspire. Couldn't have named it better:)
Thanks for sharing your wise words with me, and I shall share them with the rest of the world.
Nature sheds by Tim Fernandez
The toughest of times, usually do you 3 things.
1. it shows you what is real to you.
2. then it shows you who is real to you.
3. then it shows you what you are made of.
More often than not, it prepares you to rise from there on, from your centre with the right people who stuck by you.
Nature works in resonance. It sheds off that which does not resonate with you. Now you grow rightly.

-ZA for randomly showing up to the sound of my keyboard in my dorm room

-AA for finding the voice that was horribly singing "Leaving On A Jet Plane" at V1 Cafe

-Y for being such a big hearted Sully that you are

-ZZ for the crazy 10 years (to-date) of knowing you

-RZ, YH, AI & JG for being such awesome friends since zaman hingus sekolah rendah dan menengah

-KS,TA & KH, big sisters and bro. You guys taught me a lot.

-AR for being the ever mature budak kecik

To the rest of the people the friends that I've met back then,yesterday,now, you know who you are.

Thank you for everything :D

A Thank You Note

To The Schizo No-Balls Dayus,


Thank you for the trust built on lies.
Thank you for always wanting to win.
Thank you for being childish.
Thank you for taking advantage of the love I have to give.
Thank you for being ugly.
Thank you for the false hopes.
Thank you for the deceitful words to make me stay.
Thank you for pretending to be a friend.
Thank you for being insecure.




Thank you for making me a fighter.
Thank you for making me realize that there are sick people like you in this world.
Thank you for making me sympathize instead of hate.
Thank you for making me discover how strong I can be.
Thank you for making me a lot wiser.
Thank you for making me learn how to be happier.

Thank you for living a lie.

10 Things That Amuse/Annoy/Fascinate Me

1. You know those hi-tech toilet bowls where they have so-called "smart sensors" that flush by itself? Hate it when they flush automatically when you just landed your ass on the toilet seat and halfway through doing an important business

2. Blair Waldorf and Serena Van Der Woodson. What kind of friendship is that?

3. In-grown armpit hair. Nuff said.

4. Snobbish store assistants. As if they OWN the shop

5. People who can fit bigass marker pen in their nostrils

6. Men with pink shirt+pink tie+pink shoes

7. Queue jumpers at the Smart Tag lane

8. Tranny manicurist. It's weird when it comes to the hand massaging part, it feels like he/she/whatever is breaking my fingers

9. Pink SKL. It's like inhaling strawberry-smelling air

10. Clouds in the sky that resemble two balls and what seems like a banana in the middle when I was driving back to UTP one fine day. Too bad I forgot to snap a photo of it. Damn

Yes I Was Burned But I Call It A Lesson Learned

Lesson Learned

By: Alicia Keys featuring John Mayer

He broke
My heart
And now it’s raining
Just don’t rub it in
I’m at
Your door
I feel so crazy bout it
You’ll say I told you so
You saw it long ago
You knew he had to go
I finally came around
I’m back on solid ground
Can’t let it get me down

It’s Alright
It’s Alright
It’s Alright

Yes, I was burned but I call it a lesson learned
Mistake overturned but I call it a lesson learned
My soul has returned so I call it lesson learned
Another lesson learned

Sometimes
Some lies
Can take a minute
To fully realize
His tears
Your eyes
Thirty seconds
To apologize

You give him one more chance
Just like the time before
But he already knows
You’d give a hundred more
Until that night in bed
You wake up in a sweat
You’re racing to the door

Can’t take it anymore

I was burned but I call it a lesson learned
Mistake overturned so I call it a lesson learned
My soul has returned so I call it lesson learned
Another lesson learned

A Life perfect ain’t perfect if you don’t know what the struggle’s for
Falling down ain’t falling down if you don’t cry when you hit the floor
It’s called the past cause I’m getting past and I ain’t nothing like I was before
You oughta see me now

If I Was In Your Shoes

We humans can be the smartest creatures on earth and yet be very ignorant.


How often do you find yourself swearing at that football player just because he kicked the ball and missed the goal by 2 inches?


How often do you find yourself raising both of your hands in front of the TV saying "What the heck is this guy thinking????" when watching a badminton match.


How often do you find yourself commenting on American Idol as if you're a professional singer and you know everything? (unless you ARE a professional singer then that's a different story)


Now, try this:


1. Before you swear at that football player, think about the gruesome amount of training he has to go through on a daily basis. Also, running around non-stop whilst trying to maintain focus for a good 90 minutes is NOT easy.


2. Before you scream "APA LAAAA!" at that badminton player, please remember no.1. In badminton, it could take more that 90 minutes. Even harder.


3. When watching a singing competition, before you start commenting on:
a. Why is he/she so nervous? Chill lah.
b. Sheessshhh! Why won't he/she move a little?
c. This song is not upbeat enough.
d. Pitching is off.


Try to remember that it takes a lot of courage just to get yourself in the middle of a crowd. To then perform, is another uphill challenge. To focus, to control and manipulate skills, to please the crowd.


See, it is hard to explain until you get to do it yourself. Then most probably, you will say what Adibah Noor once said to me after I performed together with 17 other people at DFP on one fine night:


"It takes A LOT of courage just to get out there and sing. You guys are very, very brave"


So I guess one has to be in another's shoes to understand. Sadly, not everyone knows (or cares about) this.


They'd like to think they are right all the time, throw wise comments and forget to consider about how it is like to be in his/her shoes.

Bizzare? Idiotic? Fantastic?

1. Traffic summon is going to be raised by a fucking 333.33%. That's RM 1,000 instead of RM300. What about the guys who earn a mere RM 1,000 per month? How are they going to pay?? Masuk jail? Just because they answered the phone while driving out of reflex? Maybe soon we'll need to use the golf courses to build jail cells for "Orang yang tak mampu bayar saman sebab saman mahal GILA"- Because there won't be enough space in the existing lock-ups


2. An award given to Sandra Bullock which is for worst actress BTW, was asked to be returned! 


3. With the Hulu Selangor election in progress, WTF are they doing by announcing No. 1


4. My Idol, Daniel Wu, is married!! Huwaaaaa!


Ntah..lantak la. I want to sleep. Goodnight!