Self Evolution (Someone to Watch Over You)

The most important essence of life is… Evolution.

And I’m not talking about Darwin here. I am talking about you, us, and the rest of the people around the globe.

It’s funny how some people may never realize this at all in their lifetime. To come to this awakening and awareness that you have evolved and will constantly be evolving is euphoric.

It’s actually very simple (If you see it as simple and if you would want to argue with that, that’s fine. You may stop reading).

You were born into this world not by chance, not by “accident” but by this simple thing called fate.

In my case, (now I know I am turning it to me now but it is the best way to analyze and understand things better - by relating your events in life that have molded you into the person that you are right now) when I was born, I was born into the arms of a beautiful couple called my mom and dad. That was, life’s first gift to me.

Some may not even know who their real parents are, some may just grow up with just a parent, and some may have just a speck of memory of who their parents are. Whatever it may be for each of us, I have always believed that God has a plan for everyone. It is whether you’re in for the ride with Him or you’re not.

Just like Rumi said:

Learn the alchemy true human beings know. The moment you accept what troubles you've been given, the door will open.

It’s always easier to think that life hasn’t been fair to you and to put the blame on everything else around you. Blame no one because blame leads to hate and hate blinds you from seeing what God has created for you - be it in the form of a friend, a random person like that nasi lemak seller who just happened to smile at you, a comforting place (such as that little bench in the park that just gives you peace when you sit on it), a pet, a hobby, a talent and the list goes on.

The most valuable lesson that I’ve learned is learning how to be thankful-even for the smallest thing. Such as, well, I fell into a longkang once and I was so thankful that I didn’t die. Okay maybe that wasn’t so simple. I mean, it is possible that someone might die of falling into a longkang but you get my point.

See, I’ve lead what seemed like a normal life but everyone has their own stories. All I can say is that I’ve been tested with tremendous challenges after challenges that when kids my age are busy playing Legos, I’ve began to see that the world ain’t so much of rainbows and butterflies.

Bitterness used to be a part of me. Note the past tense :)

And so the journey of discovery starts. How it ends or how long it takes will depend on your consciousness of self evolution.

Let me summarize an event. Some drama happens in your life. As human you have feelings. Feelings can be very subjective but this is roughly how it goes (in order):

Hurt, Anger, Sadness, Self-Pity, Denial, Resentment, Hate, Acceptance.

Some people may get stuck at Sadness for years, some may move on to the stage and be stuck at Hate for a while but however it may end up for each of us will depend on how you view things. Some may just bounce from Hate to Acceptance then back to Hate again until they reach Acceptance.

Hate and acceptance may seem like a 360 degrees turnaround of state of mind but it can happen with a simple thing – feeling thankful. Cliché as it may sound but I’ve always believed that whatever happens is a valuable lesson. With that, one should be thankful.

Yes, sometimes it gets tiring when life keeps testing you over and over again but heck. If you take a deep breath and look around you, soon you will see that whatever happens, God is always there to watch over you- from the day you were born.

He teaches you valuable life lessons some tough, some easy, but He will always send someone to watch over you.

It is up to you to discover who those people are.

Special thanks to:

-AN for being a sister and family whenever you need to be (the rest of the time you're annoying but I still love you as much)

-M for being you and for being in my life

-TF for pointing out to me about evolution. Live & Inspire. Couldn't have named it better:)
Thanks for sharing your wise words with me, and I shall share them with the rest of the world.
Nature sheds by Tim Fernandez
The toughest of times, usually do you 3 things.
1. it shows you what is real to you.
2. then it shows you who is real to you.
3. then it shows you what you are made of.
More often than not, it prepares you to rise from there on, from your centre with the right people who stuck by you.
Nature works in resonance. It sheds off that which does not resonate with you. Now you grow rightly.

-ZA for randomly showing up to the sound of my keyboard in my dorm room

-AA for finding the voice that was horribly singing "Leaving On A Jet Plane" at V1 Cafe

-Y for being such a big hearted Sully that you are

-ZZ for the crazy 10 years (to-date) of knowing you

-RZ, YH, AI & JG for being such awesome friends since zaman hingus sekolah rendah dan menengah

-KS,TA & KH, big sisters and bro. You guys taught me a lot.

-AR for being the ever mature budak kecik

To the rest of the people the friends that I've met back then,yesterday,now, you know who you are.

Thank you for everything :D